The Immigrant: Living in Smallville (maybe the military?)
Saturday, October 24, 2009 Read more → In the name of God, entirely Compassionate, especially Merciful | Peace be with you
Asalaam alaikum.
For me, the last couple of weeks have been tough. The last time I touched base I had just returned to Canada from New Zealand and find myself quite home sick.
Living in Canada without my husband is tough even more so since I went from Montreal, with a small community, to a very small town with no other Muslims.
I am not going to assume it's because of my hijab or the fact I am Muslim but I can't even find a fast food job. This is extremely stressful since I need to be earning an income to sponsor my husband.
I'm doing everything I can to keep positive. No halal food - but eating veggie isn't all that bad, but no masjid either, the only few Muslims in town ...Why on earth my sister lives here I don't know.
In Montreal at least I felt a sense of purpose with me being there at my grandmother's side always. She's strong but the cancer makes her tired. I loved our talks, she completely understands me.
Now at my sisters' I feel secluded and alone, and just wanting the time to pass quickly so I can see my husband.
Everyone stares at me. I've become used to it, strange looks and all.
"Did u see the strange girl in the head scarf, I wonder where she's from and why she's here... I don't really like the look of her."
"Where? I want to see?!"
"Quick don't look now, she's behind us!"
My sister and father don't practise anything and question my actions all the time which is even more difficult with all the stress of my current situation.
My dad questions "why you can't pick and choose which parts of religion is right", and other things I answer constantly till I'm just tired and walk away. It's hard to explain how my dad gets almost agressive against religion and thinks he's always right, I feel bad that he's so lost and am perplexed at how no answer is good enough for him.
InshaAllah everything will be ok. My family is trying to get me to join the canadian military! I would be the first hijabi in the military, but my husband isn't exactilly thrilled about the idea - I'm not sure how I feel about it and have to check the Islamic perspective of women joining the army. If I did I would go for a desk job: no guns for me.
My dad wants me to have an action plan by Monday, inshaAllah I will.
Well, that's a little update from my little world, inshaAllah, good and more exciting things to come.
Will keep all you guys posted - let me know your perspective on me joining the military. I would love to hear peoples thoughts.
Jazak allah khair, may allah be with you.
Asalaam alaikum wa rahmatulla.
---By: The Immigrant
Peace & respect ★
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